I was scared to death… I didn’t expect it to just be a scarf.
It was inexpensive, but since it was a gift from Gu Fan, the moment it was bought, it became priceless to me—something no amount of money could take away.
When we first walked into this slightly suspicious women’s clothing store, I thought I’d have to try on some embarrassingly suggestive outfits and strike all sorts of humiliating poses for Gu Fan to take pictures. Thankfully, he bypassed those and chose this unassuming scarf.
Phew, if Gu Fan had actually pressured me into doing that, I’m not sure if I’d have refused or reluctantly gone along with it.
And then… those photos would become leverage, and Gu Fan would keep asking me to do all sorts of outrageous things. Hehe, my tail’s already excitedly wrapping around my thigh just thinking about it!
Seriously imagining those forbidden, spicy scenarios, it’s like bubbles were popping out of my head, filled with my unfulfilled desires.
“Zhinian, do you really like those women’s clothes? Should I buy you a few more?”
I was so engrossed in my fantasies that I didn’t notice my gaze had been fixed on the neatly arranged clothes, including some lingerie hanging nearby.
Snapping back to reality, I hurriedly averted my eyes, grabbed Gu Fan’s wrist, and bolted toward the store’s exit.
“No, no, I already have plenty of nice clothes—every style imaginable! If you want to see, I can change into them at home for you. No need to spend more money.”
“Oh? So I can see anything I want?”
Gu Fan’s intrigued gaze traveled from my collarbone downward, lingering on every sensitive spot…
His gaze lingered deliberately on each sensitive spot.
With my heightened sensitivity to stares, I could vividly feel the sensation of being watched by those burning eyes. It sent an inexplicable tingle through me, raising goosebumps. Even though Gu Fan didn’t touch me, my mind was already conjuring inappropriate images.
Initially, I just wanted to quickly brush off Gu Fan’s focus on buying me clothes as a Christmas gift. Caught off guard and unsure of what excuse to use, I blurted out that I’d wear anything he wanted to see.
I didn’t expect Gu Fan to be so attentive, seizing that slip of the tongue and starting to tease me both subtly and overtly.
Ugh, so annoying… If there weren’t so many people around and I wasn’t worried about Gu Fan’s reputation, I would’ve already let loose. I bared my teeth fiercely and shot him a glare.
“Of course you can. If Gu Fan’s in a hurry, we can go home right now. Stockings, lingerie—whatever you like, I’ll put them on.”
My provocative retreat only made Gu Fan raise an eyebrow. He didn’t show much emotional reaction.
Shrugging, he pulled out the fluffy scarf we’d just bought from the women’s clothing store. It was light gray with simple yet elegant patterns.
“It’s the middle of winter. I wouldn’t want Zhinian to keep changing clothes and catch a cold from wearing too little. Better bundle up.”
As he spoke, Gu Fan’s body suddenly moved closer.
The warmth radiating from him seemed to envelop the front of my body through the air. I squinted slightly, watching as he grabbed the scarf, stretched out his arms, and wrapped it slowly yet firmly around my neck.
I’d never worn a scarf growing up—hadn’t even touched one before today.
I’d only seen such a scene in TV dramas—a devoted wife gently wrapping a scarf around her husband’s neck before he heads out.
The two stand close, facing each other in silence. One quietly waits for the wife to tie the scarf snugly, while the other patiently loops it around, ensuring every bit of exposed neck is covered.
That warm atmosphere stuck with me, and I never imagined I’d one day experience such tender care myself.
“Mmm…”
“Hm? What’s wrong?”
“…Nothing.”
Gu Fan wore a faint smile, lightly tugging the ends of the scarf to ensure it was secure before stepping back, as if admiring his handiwork.
I just stared at him, wanting to etch every nuance of his expression into the depths of my memory. I realized this moment was a precious first in my life.
Even though it was just an ordinary scarf, costing less than thirty yuan, and its warmth paled compared to when Gu Fan touched my cat ears, these trivial external factors seemed to mock me for making a big deal out of it… or did they?
No, it’s precisely because it’s so ordinary that it’s worth cherishing. If it were exorbitantly expensive, this memory wouldn’t feel as pure. I’d be constantly thinking about how to repay Gu Fan, worrying about returning the value far beyond its sentimental worth.
I pursed my lips, my fingers and chin sinking into the scarf. After walking a bit, I finally shared my thoughts with Gu Fan.
“This Christmas gift… I really love it.”
“Really? I still feel it’s not enough. Zhinian, you’ve given so much more than I have. I need to give you another Christmas gift.”
“…Okay, what does Gu Fan want to give me?”
I pulled the scarf higher, covering my lips and nose. Hiding the lower half of my face somehow gave me an inexplicable sense of security.
My muffled voice asked Gu Fan, and this time, instead of looking around at the shops, he took a step closer, leaning slightly toward me as if trying to tuck himself into my hands.
Startled, I instinctively stood on my tiptoes, my steps halting in place.
“Guess what I want to give you?”
“…A tasty late-night snack?”
My imagination isn’t exactly vivid, except when it comes to fantasizing about naughty, suggestive scenarios where my talent seems to shine.
“Nope.”
“Then what is it?”
Asking directly helps preserve my not-so-sharp brain. Gu Fan didn’t keep me in suspense either, straightforwardly sharing his idea.
“Like how we met this evening, I want to give myself to you for once. You can order me around however you like, for anything at all.”
…
After hearing those words, I unconsciously swallowed, my tongue producing a flood of saliva. My eyes went blank for a moment before I finally snapped back.
Terrified I might lose control and do something bad to Gu Fan, I quickly crouched down, covering my face.
…my eyes.
“What’s wrong? Are you feeling unwell?”
“No… just let me think for a bit.”
This is bad, bad, bad—it’s way too sudden.
Gu Fan is always so good at handing himself over to me completely, as if he’s certain I wouldn’t dare strip away his outer layers or do anything too outrageous.
I desperately want to follow my heart, but all sorts of external factors keep stopping me from releasing the impure feelings pent up in my chest. I can only keep suppressing them, feeling frustrated.
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