Chapter 131: Kitty Wants to Be Even Prettier!

A mint candy rolled around on my tongue, spinning “gulu gulu.”

The refreshing coolness seeped from my mouth up into my brain, lifting my drowsy mind little by little.

I gripped the ballpoint pen tightly and wrote down the answers smoothly, pouring all my focus into it.

For subjects like geography, which leaned more toward the humanities, the test was relatively easy for me.

The knowledge flowed naturally from memory onto the paper. Back when I was preparing for the college entrance exams, I’d gone through stacks of practice tests as tall as a tower.

“Click.”

Finished… The candy in my mouth had already dissolved, leaving behind only a chest full of cool freshness.

I tossed the pen onto the desk and, without bothering to check my answers, flopped down onto the test paper in one motion.

There were still more than twenty minutes left. I might as well rest properly, so I’d be refreshed later—then when I go eat with Gu Fan, I won’t embarrass myself too much.

Closing my eyes, I let my consciousness drift into the turbulent stream of thoughts. A strange urge to laugh at myself welled up inside me.

If only I could put the same meticulous calculation I use when dealing with all the little details of being with Gu Fan into studying or work—what kind of person would I become?

But I didn’t hold onto that fleeting fantasy. I let it drift quickly past and vanish without a trace.

Perhaps that version of me would be a dazzling girl.

But that’s not what I truly want.

At least for me right now, Gu Fan has already become the meaning of my existence.

A slightly chilly wind brushed past the treetops. The festively decorated branches swayed enchantingly, blocking my view of the weather.

The glaring red ornaments reflected against my empty heart, and in an instant, all my interest faded.

I lowered my gaze slightly and glanced at the street.

“Fortunately… it’s not so crowded that people are packed together.”

I let out a small sigh of relief. There were quite a few people on the road, but still enough space for two people to walk side by side.

Compared to the chaos of shopping for New Year’s goods, today was much better.

In just a few days, the festival would officially begin. By then, it might be impossible to even step outside… who would be in the mood for romance in that kind of crowd?

Still, the festive atmosphere of the New Year only comes once a year. Experiencing it with Gu Fan now and then isn’t so bad.

But if I had to spend the holidays alone… then it would be completely meaningless. Compared to the blandness of ordinary days, special occasions like these only deepen the already endless loneliness, wrapping tightly around me and drawing an even sharper line between me and everyone else. Disgusting.

I let out a self-mocking laugh, turned back to the bed, and picked up the neatly folded light-blue short skirt laid on the blanket.

“Mm… that should do it. If I wear too much, I’ll just look bulky.”

Pushing aside the messy thoughts crowding my head, I walked over to the full-length mirror to check my outfit.

The knitted beige shawl covered the obvious curves of my chest. Inside, I wore a rather loose thick sweater, which made me feel like I’d lost all my “advantages.”

Puffing my cheeks in frustration, I pressed my palm lightly against my chest. It was still… substantial to the touch, even if it didn’t look that way from the outside.

If I were going out alone, dressing like this would be fine. No matter how much I tried to ignore other people’s stares, there would always be some with ill intentions—people who might use the crowds as an excuse to make sneaky moves on me…

I’ve already been living as a girl for so long. Even though I don’t go out very often, I’m still forced to endure some unnecessary malice.

Wearing something more conservative still has its benefits. But… today I’m going out with Gu Fan.

I can’t give up on making myself look prettier just because of fear.

Besides, with Gu Fan by my side, the only person who could possibly touch any private part of my body… would only be Gu Fan.

No one else can break through the defenses Gu Fan sets up for me. On this point, I trust him completely.

I know that even if the girl going to the flower market with Gu Fan weren’t me, but just an ordinary acquaintance, he would still protect her the same way.

I carefully thought about how to make myself more attractive—

Enough that Gu Fan would fall for me at a single glance.

“What should I do?”

I opened my wardrobe. Looking over the dresses, coats, and blouses I had bought,

I suddenly realized— Was my wardrobe always this small?

Not enough. Completely not enough.

I frowned.

Thorny brambles wrapped around my body like a wild beast pouncing on its prey, Causing them to let out painful screams.

I stomped hard, shaking off those thorns, Then anxiously walked back to the window.

Carefully watching each girl passing by, I stared at the beautiful, dazzling clothes they wore, Guessing how big their wardrobes must be— And whether they were filled to the brim with all kinds of outfits…

“It seems… I’m still not qualified enough when it comes to being a woman…”

Only at this moment did I finally understand why some girls love hoarding new clothes—
It’s because what they already have really isn’t enough to wear.

Summer clothes can’t be worn in winter. And winter clothes can’t be worn in summer either. If you refine it further, even spring and autumn need their own sets.

Each season requires different amounts of clothing. And every outfit’s design, style, and type also have to be divided up.

You can’t just wear the same conservative trench coat all year round, right? That would be too strange, and people would get visually tired of it.

I want Gu Fan’s eyes to light up every time he sees me. Sometimes I want to stir his desire. Sometimes I want to soothe his heart.

I want to conquer Gu Fan’s heart from different aesthetic angles. That is my true goal.

When I returned to the full-length mirror again, My expression was much gloomier than before.

This made my naturally cold features give off an even stronger air of unapproachability.

I coldly stared into the mirror at the black-haired catgirl.

Her lips were flat. Her eyelids drooped slightly. And her red eyes gave off a dangerous glint because of it.

Like this… Can I really attract Gu Fan?

Sometimes I feel that my appearance is too cold. And the moment I speak, it’s filled with sharp hostility.

Like a hedgehog raising its spikes, forcing every creature nearby to retreat. Closing my eyes, I let out a deep sigh.

I stopped paying attention to my facial expression. Instead, I turned to figuring out how to highlight my proud figure.

“Should I try it this way?”

I tugged at the hem of my sweater and murmured softly. I tried pulling the sweater tight, making it cling closely to my body.

As I expected, my curves were perfectly outlined. But the price was that it squeezed my chest…

And made it a little hard to breathe.

Forget it, I’ll endure it.

It’s just strolling through the flower market with Gu Fan.

It won’t be too long— I can bear with it. During this period at home, not wearing clothes hasn’t even been a problem for me.

Comforting myself with that thought, I quickly allowed my body to adapt to the feeling of being bound.

“Mm… what should I do about this shawl?”

Should I not wear it? But just wearing the sweater alone feels a bit too provocative… This kind of casual style is fine at home, but outside it would look a little improper.

I tugged at the beige shawl covering my chest and thought about it for a long while.

In the end, I decided to tighten it as well, so that it only modestly covered my collarbone, without slipping lower to hide my chest.

That should be fine, right?

I patted the hem of my short skirt.

Lightly tiptoeing on feet wrapped in thick black tights, I spun once before the full-length mirror. The fluttering of the skirt made my heart leap with joy.

I was already imagining Gu Fan’s reaction when he saw me dressed like this…

“Ehehe.”

I let out a silly laugh a few times. Then I grabbed the phone on my nightstand.

After sending Gu Fan a message, I hurriedly ran out of my room toward the entryway.

But on the way… I ended up running into my mother.

She stood with her arms crossed, gazing out through the floor-to-ceiling living room window at the scenery outside.

Hearing my footsteps, she slowly turned her head— And looked straight at me.