My tail… it started trembling with excitement.
Standing upright, it brushed against the cool barrier behind me. The external chill and internal heat merged, creating an indescribably wondrous sensation, surging through my overly sensitive body.
Hearing Gu Fan openly mention topics tied to naughty desires without any hesitation caught me off guard. To be precise, it was mostly delight with only a hint of shock.
I hadn’t expected Gu Fan to be so comfortable with these topics. Compared to my timid hesitation, he seemed far more at ease.
Hmph, so in Gu Fan’s mind, these desires are perfectly normal—a natural part of human nature. He must understand that such urges can’t be suppressed.
Joy swelled inside me like expanding cotton candy, filling my chest to the brim. I couldn’t help but smile. Flame, nestled in my arms, stopped fussing and curled up to sleep, making my mood even brighter.
“Gu Fan, do you think I look so good in this outfit that it really gets to you?”
It was as if I heard the sound of chains breaking in my ears, as though something deep in my heart had shattered its restraints and quietly awakened.
My vision grew hazy, Gu Fan’s figure blurring and flickering in my eyes. I murmured my question, my body instinctively leaning forward, nearly pressing against his chest.
I tilted my head up, gazing into the depths of his eyes, declaring how much my heart and body craved his answer.
The situation seemed to be sliding rapidly toward a terrifying abyss. I vaguely sensed this trajectory but had no intention of stopping it.
On the contrary, I wanted to add more fuel to the fire, letting the flames of desire burn even hotter.
Gu Fan’s earlier words had ignited the fuse of a powder keg, shattering the chains that bound my moral baseline. I was now consumed by a beast of desire, my rationality long gone.
Let it be… no need to resist… just go along with it… be with me.
Silently chanting these words, I bent down to gently place the sleeping Flame on the floor. As I moved to wrap my arms around Gu Fan’s waist, he lightly pressed my shoulders.
I looked up at him, full of anticipation, only to see a flicker of pain in his eyes. He quickly stepped back, ensuring I couldn’t casually get closer to his body.
What’s that supposed to mean? The mood was so perfect—why pull back now?
Confused, I tilted my head, standing up slowly while keeping my eyes locked on his, searching for a reasonable explanation.
Didn’t he say he wasn’t impotent? Is he backtracking now? I don’t want Gu Fan to be a weak-willed guy…
His hand, which had been holding my shoulders, finally let go, only to grasp my wrist instead.
“Let’s talk somewhere else.”
His words jolted me, and I realized this wasn’t a private place for flirting.
Glancing at the counter, I saw the manager grinning so wide she could barely contain herself. Thankfully, she was far enough away, and with so few customers and staff today, no one would’ve overheard our near-taboo conversation.
Desire surged like a tidal wave, rising quickly but receding just as fast.
In just a dozen seconds of cooling down, I broke free from the dreamy pink haze, my mind growing clearer.
Once calm, I immediately realized how extreme I’d been moments ago.
That was close…
Swallowing hard with lingering fear, I couldn’t believe I’d been so reckless as to want to “have my way” with Gu Fan right then and there. What a shameless lunatic I am.
Reflecting on this, I shifted from being pulled along by Gu Fan to actively following him.
His hand was steady, unlike mine, trembling from overexcitement with a faint bloating sensation in my stomach. Could it be that Gu Fan wasn’t actually tempted by me…?
As usual, I started overthinking, curious whether my near-flirtatious, pleading actions from twenty seconds ago had truly stirred his heart.
Gu Fan led me to a more secluded corner where we sat down, the heater blasting warm air, making me shiver from the sudden warmth.
“Gu Fan… uh, don’t take what I said earlier too seriously. I was just joking, haha.”
I felt compelled to explain, struggling to come up with this response, though it sounded awkward and off.
I couldn’t think of anything better, so I forced it out despite the cringe.
Gu Fan lowered his eyes, fiddling with the strap of the mini camera that could hang around his neck, seemingly lost in thought.
Getting no response, I wondered—was he mad at me? Or was he still caught up in the earlier mood?
Rubbing my sensitive cat ears, a soothing sensation coursed through my body like electricity, instantly lightening my mood. I racked my brain for a suitable topic, determined to break the awkward stalemate with conversation.
“Um… by the way, why did you come here today, Gu Fan? Did you know I was working here?”
Gu Fan’s hand froze mid-motion at my question, then he lifted his eyes to meet mine. It seemed my approach worked—he wasn’t lost in his own thoughts anymore.
“No, I didn’t know you were working here. Some friends invited me out for coffee this morning. You mentioned you’d be working today and tomorrow, so I just sent you a holiday greeting text. I didn’t expect to run into you here.”
“Huh? A text? My phone’s charging in the staff room, so I must’ve missed it… Sorry, sorry.”
“Hmph, if apologies worked, what would we need police for?”
Gu Fan teased with a mischievous glint, propping his elbow on the table and resting his cheek in his hand, a playful smirk tugging at his lips.
I puffed out my cheeks, resisting the urge to playfully swat at him.
But despite my thoughts, I couldn’t help secretly admiring how relaxed Gu Fan looked. The thought that I’d get to see him like this often in the future filled me with uncontainable joy.
“Oh, by the way, I get off work at six today.”
I tried to casually mention my shift’s end time, but it felt a bit too deliberate.
Oh well… since I’d already said it, I might as well commit. I looked at Gu Fan, my eyes sparkling with anticipation.
His response was a helpless smile.
“Then should I wait here for you until evening? I don’t have much going on today. Those guys mostly came for the cats and maids here anyway. The plan was just to hang out for a bit, take a walk, and head home.”
“Um… no need. I don’t want you sitting here bored for so long. Just come pick me up tonight, okay?”
I really wanted to keep Gu Fan here, staring only at me, not wandering off with others.
But… how do I put it? Once the rush of impulsiveness faded, the chains of restraint wrapped around me again, and I was no longer the fearless warrior.
Besides, many of my fantasies about Gu Fan were, at their core, impossible to realize.
I’m like a snake trying to swallow an elephant whole, but my stomach isn’t strong enough to digest it. The elephant thrashes around inside, like a saw scraping harshly. If I don’t spit it out and keep trying to suppress it by tightening my belly, one day I’ll burst.
So… I should rein in my desires for now, at least until I become a super giant python stronger than the elephant.