Chapter 33: Disappointment

Xing Lian explained with a red face.

“What could a Cat Clan and a Fox Clan produce together? What about a fox and an aquatic species? Could they give birth to a water fox?”

“Ah, I’m not really sure about that.” Yue Li scratched her cheek.

Although she had traveled the continent for a time, she had spent more time at home. 

Plus, she didn’t concern herself with such matters, so she wasn’t clear on it.

“Eh, I see.”

Xing Lian felt a bit disappointed, but she quickly dismissed it. 

She suddenly remembered something she had long wanted to ask but never had the chance.

“When two girls do that kind of thing and want a child, who gets pregnant? Is it random, or is it…”

Xing Lian’s eyes were full of expectation.

With Yue Li by her side, being ‘cooked and brewed’ every night without any protective measures, it would be terrible if she got pregnant.

It would be best if she couldn’t get pregnant. 

If the result were random, she’d have a fifty percent chance of being safe. 

‘Please don’t let it be a designated pregnancy.’

Xing Lian prayed silently in her heart, but the result left her utterly disappointed.

“These things are all about luck. Some hit the mark with one try, others won’t conceive for a long time. If someone gets pregnant, it’s definitely the one being pinned down.”

‘The one being pinned down?’

Xing Lian thought of herself, and her face instantly turned deathly pale.

She was always the one being pinned down. 

If there was a pregnancy, it would undoubtedly be her.

What should she do? 

What could she do!?

If she got pregnant while being constantly bullied by Yue Li, how would she manage?

“Um… do you know of anything that can prevent pregnancy? Like medicine or items?”

“What are you trying to do!?” Yue Li’s eyes narrowed instantly.

“N-no… I’m not trying to do anything.” Xing Lian stammered and lowered her head.

“Don’t try to fool me.”

Yue Li lifted her face with a hand, looking into her emerald-green eyes.

“You wouldn’t be thinking about contraception, would you? So unwilling to bear my child? If not mine, whose do you want to bear?”

By the end, her expression had turned serious, and she seemed to be in a bad mood.

Yue Li thought of Fei, ‘Several months had passed. After training her for so long, could she still be thinking about that woman?’

Xing Lian, with her animal-like intuition, keenly sensed the danger and quickly waved her hands.

“It’s not that I don’t want to… I just… I just feel a little scared.”

This statement was half-true, half-false.

Giving birth to Yue Li’s child—of course, she was unwilling. 

That was a lie. 

But the fear was real.

Being blind, staying home all the time, and lacking experience had left her quite simple-minded.

Xing Lian felt she was still a child herself. 

How could she possibly want to get pregnant? 

She was completely unprepared mentally.

Besides, she used to be a boy. 

Having a child was something she found hard to accept.

Unaware of Xing Lian’s thoughts, Yue Li looked at her, her eyes glinting.

“Really not unwilling, just scared?”

“Really, of course it’s true.”

Xing Lian nodded like a chick pecking at rice.

Seeing her expression didn’t seem fake, Yue Li finally let her off.

However, this incident served as a reminder.

Although Xing Lian had become obedient due to the training, she definitely hadn’t fully settled her heart. 

There was still some unwillingness.

If the two of them had a child and she became a mother, she would surely focus her heart completely on her, utterly forgetting that annoying woman.

With this plan in mind, that night, Yue Li exerted herself even more vigorously, hoping for good news.

Xing Lian didn’t understand why, tiredly dealing with Yue Li until the early hours before finally falling into a deep sleep.

Ever since choosing to compromise and no longer resisting Yue Li, Xing Lian’s days had gotten better and better.

Every day was just eating, sleeping, and accompanying her at night—nothing else.

This daily life was quite dull, but Xing Lian liked it. 

She liked this simplicity.

Sometimes she would even immerse herself in it, completely forgetting about Fei.

At first, forgetting her made Xing Lian feel a bit panicked, but slowly she grew accustomed to it.

Thinking carefully, how deep was her bond with Fei really? 

It was just a few months of interaction. 

Her feelings for Fei seemed to be mere dependency.

Yue Li had been with her for so long now, gradually catching up and surpassing, her fondness for her increasing day by day.

‘Have I fallen for her?’

‘Seems not…’

Xing Lian asked and answered herself.

She had affection for Yue Li, but it was far from love. 

Perhaps what she felt for Fei wasn’t real love either. 

The one she liked most was only herself.

Lost in these random thoughts, she slowly fell asleep.

Time flowed slowly, and in a blink, another month passed.

On this day, Xing Lian woke up, and Yue Li dressed her, putting on a light, fluttery little dress.

After wearing heavy, thick cotton clothes for months, suddenly putting on a dress made her body feel much lighter.

“The cold season has passed. It’s the warm season now. You can wear new clothes.”

Yue Li straightened the wrinkles on Xing Lian’s clothes, put on her socks and shoes, and did her hair and makeup.

Once dressed, looking at the cute girl in the white dress before her, she couldn’t help but show a pleased smile.

The cotton clothes wrapped the body tightly. 

How could they compare to a little dress?

Xing Lian in a white dress, with her slender arms and snow-white calves exposed, was a delightful sight.

“Don’t look at me like that.”

Feeling her heated gaze, Xing Lian tugged uncomfortably at her skirt.

She could see even more clearly every night. 

Now that she was wearing clothes, why was Yue Li staring at her like this? 

It felt really embarrassing.

“You don’t understand.”

Yue Li covered her mouth and chuckled.

Full exposure had its merits, but half-concealment had its own unique charm. 

Faced with another beautiful aspect of her beloved, how could she not like it?

Xing Lian didn’t want to discuss this with her. 

She touched her stomach and ‘looked’ up at her.

Yue Li had developed a fondness with her. 

She reached out, took her hand, and led her toward the dining table.

Breakfast wasn’t lavish, just a few small dishes, but each was exquisitely prepared.

Xing Lian drank some beast milk, ate a small sweet cake, took a few more casual bites, and felt somewhat full.

Seeing she was finished, Yue Li wiped her mouth with a towel and took her outside for a stroll.

The warm season was different from the cold season, somewhat similar to spring in her previous life. 

The flowers in the courtyard had bloomed, and a pleasant floral fragrance filled the air.

Xing Lian sniffed the floral scent, a smile curling at the corner of her mouth.

The fragrance was captivating; the sight must be beautiful too. 

It was a pity she had never seen it.

Bitterness mingled within her smile, but she was already quite content.

Only…

Was she truly content?

Xing Lian sighed softly.

At that moment, Yue Li suddenly spoke, “Lian’er, since your eyes can’t see, do you ever feel very sad?”

“Sad? I…”

Xing Lian couldn’t finish her sentence, but she didn’t need to. 

The expression on her face conveyed her thoughts quite clearly.

“If you could see, would you be happy?”

Xing Lian blinked, her grip on Yue Li’s fingers tightening slightly.

She was asking the obvious.

If she could see, of course she would be happy. 

She might even go crazy with joy.