Perhaps this was the first time in my life I felt grateful that I hadn’t fallen too far behind in Chinese class—
my reading comprehension was still decent enough to understand what Gu Fan meant.
“Pffft…”
I couldn’t help but let out a silly laugh.
Even though Gu Fan was right next to me, I couldn’t suppress the joy bubbling inside me.
I just had to let it out.
Hopefully, he wouldn’t think I’d turned into some kind of idiot.
All in all, I finally understood what it felt like for a girl to be complimented on her figure— my whole body tingled, like I’d taken a mouthful of sweet honey.
Joy coursed through my veins like a gentle stream.
Lowering my gaze, I crossed my legs and kicked them lightly in delight.
Even after a while, the excitement still hadn’t worn off.
Sometimes, being too happy can be a bit of a problem too.
I snuck a glance at Gu Fan out of the corner of my eye.
He was looking at the side of my face with a big smile.
When he noticed I was peeking, he slowly handed me the paper bag with the donuts.
“Go ahead and eat first. You can daydream whenever you want— but donuts aren’t as good once they’ve gone cold.”
“…Okay.”
I nodded obediently, my relaxed cat ears gently swaying along with the movement.
The edge of the paper bag was a little greasy, but it wasn’t sticky—just looked a bit dirty.
Still… since it was something Gu Fan bought for me, even if I had a cleanliness obsession, I would’ve forced myself to take it anyway.
Besides, I really didn’t mind whether it was dirty or not.
Without hesitation, I held the paper bag, peeled it down a bit, and revealed the deep brown chocolate coating of the donut.
I glanced at Gu Fan, and only after confirming that his attention had shifted to eating his own donut did I feel safe enough to take a big bite with a “chomp.”
According to some guys online, they say watching their girlfriends eat can be kind of off-putting—
like, it ruins the image they had of them.
I wasn’t sure whether Gu Fan would think the same.
Based on what I knew of him, even if he did think my eating manner was horrendously ugly, he’d probably still keep up that flawless smile of his just to humor me.
…Ugh, how annoying.
If I could choose any superpower, I’d definitely pick the ability to freely read Gu Fan’s mind—
and do it without him ever finding out.
That way, I’d know exactly what kind of thoughts Gu Fan has when he’s with me.
Are they naughty?
Or are they just bland and indifferent, like how he’d treat some random passerby?
What I want to know most is—what does Gu Fan think about when I’m not around?
Does he miss me?
Surely… surely he isn’t developing feelings for another girl, right?!!
No way—absolutely not! I won’t allow that!
I don’t want Gu Fan to feel even a moment of fluttering or desire for any girl that isn’t me—not even for a single second.
I clenched my teeth fiercely.
The edge of the paper bag pressed against my lips made a crinkling, tearing sound as I bit down.
The dry, papery taste had already begun to sneak its way onto my tongue.
Damn it.
If I could get one more superpower—or swap the first one—I’d want the ability to completely control Gu Fan.
If I say one, he’s not allowed to think two. Everything would revolve around me.
Gu Fan’s body would only react to me. His eyes would only ever focus on me.
I wouldn’t let anyone else make eye contact with him.
Who knows—it might interfere with my absolute control over him.
If I couldn’t control Gu Fan’s thoughts or actions, then I at least wanted this superpower to let me change his interpersonal relationships, his surroundings, and every other external factor.
I… want to slowly lead Gu Fan down a path where he can only rely on me and no one else…
Hehehe…
I can’t help but look forward to the sight of Gu Fan collapsing into my arms in utter despair,
sobbing uncontrollably.
And I’d gently stroke the well-defined muscles of his back, comforting him like a caring wife, breaking through his last defenses with sweet, deceiving words.
In the end, all I need to do is guide Gu Fan’s hand to rest on my chest, then flash him a teasing, seductive smile…
And everything will fall into place naturally.
Once we’ve consummated our relationship, it’d be as good as having him locked by my side for good.
Lost in this string of increasingly insane fantasies, I sat there rubbing my teeth for who knows how long,
until a sudden stinging pain pricked my cheek — as if someone had pinched me.
The pain made me furrow my brows and snapped me out of my delusions.
Gu Fan waved his hand in front of my face a few times, then crouched down directly in front of me,
elbows resting on his knees.
His handsome amber eyes looked up at me, brimming with a soft warmth.
Ah… I really am something.
Once I start daydreaming, I even lose track of time.
I noticed Gu Fan’s paper bag was already empty, while the donut in my hand had gone cold and stiff —
probably no longer tasty.
What a shame. I’d only taken one bite.
It’s not that I was that hungry and desperately needed to eat, but I was worried that leaving so much uneaten might make Gu Fan think I didn’t like what he bought.
“What’s wrong? Don’t like it? You’ve been hesitating over it for a while now.”
Gu Fan didn’t seem angry.
But then again, maybe he was just putting on a front.
I mumbled out vague praises about the donut.
“Yummy, yummy, this chocolate is super sweet! I was just thinking about something earlier, Gu Fan, don’t worry — I’ll finish it all. I really do like donuts, I wasn’t being picky, I swear.”
I still wanted to say more, but my mouth was already stuffed with the overly sweet chocolate shell and soft bread.
I could only widen my eyes and stare hard at Gu Fan, trying to prove — with sheer determination — that I wasn’t being ungrateful about the donut.
At first, I wanted to explain to Gu Fan what exactly I had been thinking about, but I quickly realized that those insane, delusional fantasies were absolutely, absolutely things I could never say out loud.
So I had no choice but to brush it off vaguely and obediently.
Gu Fan let out a soft laugh.
Holding a napkin between his fingers, he slowly leaned in toward my face.
Under my puzzled gaze, he gently wiped the corner of my mouth.
Only when he pulled the napkin away did I see the little smudge of cream on it.
Looks like I had eaten a bit too wildly — the cream filling had oozed out.
“No need to eat so hurriedly. I didn’t mean to criticize you,” he said.
“I just thought Zhinen looks really cute when she spaces out. The way you grind your teeth, your eyebrows scrunching and relaxing like that… I just wanted to ask what you were worrying about.
Maybe I could help you solve it.”
In a sense…
If Gu Fan were willing enough to cooperate, then I might actually be able to turn my fantasies into reality even without relying on my superpower.
But still — I’d never say them aloud.
Not even if one day we got married, had kids, and spent a lifetime together.
I wouldn’t dare reveal such arrogant, delusional wishes.
They were simply too anti-social — any sane person would find them deeply disturbing.
After all… a twisted girl like me might only be welcome in fiction.
In real life, people would surely avoid me like the plague.
“I was just thinking… what other ‘first times’ does Gu Fan still have that haven’t been taken by someone else? I want to be the one to get them first.”